what would I do?

today is monday (yeah, yeah... so what?), but today is freeday in my country, I don't know why the hell we aren't do our stuff, but we aren't doing it, and that's the matter: if you don't do what you must do you don't have things to do... well, it maybe sounds a little weird or whatever, but it is true, I mean... what do you do on freedays? now ¿is it useful?, at least my answer is no, and that worries me a little 'cause if at any moment I could rest I do it, I don't know if I really want to do what I do, and I mean study.
my rational mind tells me and wants to continue studing, to be a succeful person... but, what is a succeful person anyway?, and what would happen if I leave it... everything. I don't know, I think my other me, my subrational fraction of myself doesn't stop me 'cause I have nothing better to do, but I someday I have it? what would happen?
I feel I have thought too much about this, so I'll leave it now, I will stop thinking things like that, as I always do when I start to doubt about what I'm doing... altough I think I must think about this matter
I will prepare my stuff to go to the school tomorrow, and I will continue doing what I am doing, no matter if I don't know why am I doing it.
one last thing:I think more when I write what I think, I will continue doing things like this if more are coming, I won't stop myself if I start something like this.
bye, I hope I could read you later... leave me a comment, sometimes I feel I'm doing this for nothing.

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Mood:Lazy